Things have been so icky for the last several weeks I have (obviously) been skipping my blog writing, journaling, and painting. I just haven’t felt like any of it. I had one medical test that made me feel so bad, I was just flat on my back for days and days….and do you know what? They haven’t even bothered to give me the results yet.
Then it has just felt like things have been moving so fast. There is a doctor appointment downtown every day, and then I have to get to the tanning bed; when you don’t feel quite 100% yet, just getting this stuff down sucks up all the resources.
I write my blog in my head sometimes. Even then, the narrative trails off. I’m tired.
BUT, I have a gorgeous tan, mind you, since I keep following the advice of “Kate Middleton,” my biologist-medical consultant to get an hour’s worth of sun each day (or its tanning bed equivalent). By the way, by her permission “Kate Middleton” may now go by her proper name, Dr. Kaye Blee. It’s thanks to her I am truly a bronze goddess, the envy even of the women who work at the tanning place. I keep meaning to have someone take a picture, but I take such rotten pictures. Still, if you saw me you would agree that even my multi-scarred legs look good.
Things have taken a turn for the better, however. I mentioned not being able to gather any enthusiasm for going to the newest pain doctor. Turns out new pain doc seems to be a keeper. Within an hour, he saw the mistakes the old guy was making and laid out a treatment plan with OPTIONS. He has some ideas for treatments that I have not been offered before that seem like they are very promising.
I had a minor one late last week (cortisone injections in my Sacroiliac Joint, which made a dramatic difference). In the future, I will have Botox injections in my shoulders and forehead (oh, so sorry, buh-bye wrinkles!) because of my myofascial/migraine pain. Most interestingly to me, though, is the option for me to take part in a 3-day infusion of Ketamine.
Long past my Ecstatic prime, I was aware of Ketamine as a disco-drug in the 90s (see users’ descriptions of “going down the k-hole” here). Someone offered it to me once in a bar, and I asked my brother about it. He said, “Uh, dude. Those people are so stupid. That is an animal tranquilizer.” Ironically, Ketamine is now used as a human tranquilizer–or anesthesia, that is. But the newest use for it is as a “reset” for pain receptors. There’s a topical pain cream that is much like the great pain cream I have been using, only with Ketamine in it. Thanks to new pain doc, I have the new Ketamine cream already and it is very effective. Apparently, a three-day iv trip down the k-hole (at controlled doses, of course) can reset one’s pain receptors considerably. Research on the topic is enough to make me want to sign up for three days as an inpatient. Still, I reserve optimism about this treatment, this doctor (I won’t even name him yet) because I keep becoming so effusive for no good reason. I’ve decided to conserve my easy ejaculations of exultation. You never know when you’ll really need ejaculation.
So to review, I‘ve started with the SI Joint injection, which I’ll stick with for a while. The Botox injections are on the table as I understand it and will happen shortly. Wiggling down the k-hole will be some time in the future.
It’s really nice to have a list of possibilities to anticipate when pain is a permanent fixture.